| Surviving and Thriving in Academia |
The discrimination, rejection, alienation, exclusion, and devaluation that are central aspects of a negative tenure outcome can readily precipitate an array of distressing symptoms and feelings. Shock and disbelief are common reactions. This is particularly true when a negative tenure decision is completely unexpected, as when it occurs at the department level in a situation in which the tenure applicant has received no prior feedback indicating dissatisfaction with his or her performance.
As shock and disbelief subside, you may experience a deep sense of betrayal and outrage. These often vacillate with equally strong feelings of self-doubt and worthlessness. Both types of feelings are common reactions to such an event. Other frequently encountered reactions include anxiety, panic, depression, helplessness, difficulty concentrating, and various somatic disturbances (Hamilton, Alagna, King,& Lloyd, 1987). Reactions are likely to be more intense when the rejection occurs at the departmental level among one's colleagues than when there is strong departmental support but a negative decision at a higher level. Feeling overwhelmed by stress is a normal response. Furthermore, not feeling in control of your emotions or behavior should not be construed as validation of the negative evaluation you have received.
Many who decide to take a functional approach by fighting the denial of their tenure find themselves obsessed with the details of both the criticisms raised against them and their points of rebuttal. Given the fact that most academicians have excelled in their lives through somewhat compulsive application of cognitive skills, it is not surprising that under stress this may distort into obsession and rumination. Getting the data together to fight the decision may help you feel more in control.
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