What inspired your interest in this area of study?
The phenomenal Dr. Joy DeGruyopens in new window inspired my interest. She has coined the term “post traumatic slave syndromeopens in new window” and is trying to get it into the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders. The effects of generational trauma on oppressed groups, especially marginalized communities of color, need further investigation. The role multigenerational trauma plays in human development and how it can be genetically coded from individual to individual theoretically is the missing link to certain behaviors.
I became very excited when I saw her work because she’s filling in a knowledge gap. It also gave me what I needed to say, “I can do this too.” Then, with BSU supporting me in every area, from research to all the different opportunities that they have gifted me, I think that I’m moving in the right direction. I’m so excited to be a part of the psychological community as a scientist. I can say that now.
I believe that God put me on this earth for one reason and one reason only: to serve others. Through that service, I can give back. However, in 2015, I lost the ability to walk due to workplace stress. I had a supervisor who made it very difficult for me as I led a team of 19 managers, 17 group homes, and 132 staff members. He terminated all my managers and told me I had to do the work of my director’s position, the work of all the house managers, and the work of the program managers. I went on and said, “OK, I’m going to just go ahead and deal with this and see what I can do.” In retrospect, that was the wrong thing to do, because the stress that decision brought demobilized me.
In October 2015, my wife and I were at an event, and I passed out. By the time I got to the hospital, I had lost the ability to walk. Literally, I couldn’t catch my balance, I couldn’t stand, I couldn’t do anything. The doctors could not figure out what was going on. At that point, I decided that if the doctors couldn’t tell me, then I needed to look at the research and figure it out for myself. With support from my therapist and my professors, I did the research and found a couple of potential diagnoses. It turned out that my traumatic work experience brought on posttraumatic stress disorder, anxiety, major depression, and insomnia. Although I am now permanently disabled, I can walk with assistance.
I chose to pursue my master’s degree in counseling psychology because I wanted to understand what was happening to me, and I wanted to be that person who could help someone else get through what I was just starting to come out of.